sapphire wolf

Hi guys.

For those interested, I would like to let you know that I have created my new LJ. This one will still be used though... but just not for personal stuff. I dont feel like sharing my life story and what goes through my messed up head with everyone in the world.

So far, I have already added the three people who commented on my previous entry. That's Chris, Maan, and Aissa.

My new LJ is going to be a "FRIENDS ONLY" journal. So if you would like to be added, please leave a comment.

Arigatou ne!

Here's my new LJ: flutteringsnow

Just a notice to anyone who actually reads my blog entries here:

As of right now, I will not be posting any personal blog entries in this journal. I am curently using this journal for something else... something less personal as of the moment. I am currently keeping another journal somewhere and I choose to keep that private. I am going through some rough times right now... so I need a little change for the time being. I will be letting you guys know if I will be posting up a new journal soon.

I plan to make a "FRIENDS-ONLY" livejournal sometime in the future. Please let me know if you are interested in being added as a friend to that by leaving me a comment here.

Sorry about not updating recently... but I hope everyone is doing well! ^__^

Cosplay of Squall Leonheart from Final Fantasy VIII. The creator of this cosplay asked me to take pictures of the costume she made me. My younger sister took the pictures and she had quite some fun with it. "HOLD THAT POSE AND THAT FACE ATE!! DONT MOVE!!" Hahahah! It was kinda hard to keep a straight face. LOL. The pictures are kinda blurry...coz I couldnt find the good camera. Grrr... anyways... let me know what you guys think. This will be one of my cosplays for AX 2008.

Check out the other pictures here: http://sapphirewolf22.multiply.com/photos/album/12/Squall_Cosplay_trial

Comments are very much welcomed!! ^__^ Arigatou!

Life sucks... did you know that?

I just went on my very first official date last night. HAHAHA....

Anyways, belated Happy Valentines, everyone! ^__^

Hi guys... long time no see. How has everyone been doing?

Anyways... I just thought of going back to blogging on LJ. It's been such a long time... and a lot has happened. I just want my life to go the way I want it to this time. I'm so tired of myself being so mediocre for so long. I mean... whatever happened to trying my best in everything I do?

Maybe that's why I havent been passionate about anything. I felt lost. I felt like I'm not good enough. Strange really... when have I stopped believing in myself? When have I allowed myself to fall so low? When have I lost hope for my own future and self?

God... enough of this!

From now on, I WILL be stronger. I WILL be more focused. I WILL not give up. I WILL do my best. I WILL push myself to the limit. I WILL break my limits. I WILL take care of myself more. I WILL smile and laugh more. I WILL take time to appreciate everything around me. I WILL stop hating so much. I WILL be optimistic. I WILL reach and accomplish all my dreams. I WILL believe in myself.

I WILL BE THE SELF THAT I ASPIRE TO BE.

i want to be a better me. All around.

I've realized what kind of stupid and wretched person I am.

Meh... school has started again. I just got through the first week of school and I'm already overwhelmed and kinda tired. *shiver* I'm so anxious about this school year that it's not even funny. BUT! I promised myself that I will try my best to stay on top of everything this year. I have to do my best...

So Lauren and I finally have a dorm room to ourselves. It's so comfortable being around her. It's nice having her as a roomate because we get along so well and we agree on so many things. Hahaha... ^___^ Anyways.. I'm just happy about that. I can finally breathe and relax in my dorm room... tch... unlike last year *erases horrible memories.* Hehehe...

Lauren, Neldinne, and I all have the same Nursing classes and clinical groups for this semester. Yey! So happy! And so scared at the same time! >.< LOL. We have OB and Pediatrics this semester and I heard that this is one of the hardest sections for the junior year. Geh. I can already feel the shit load of work and pain I have to go through when the teachers were introducing the classes and the syllabus. I'm not really looking forward to it. But at the same time I'm kinda excited. Hehehe! I get to take care of babies and kids... that's a change from what I'm used to... but it looks exciting (and horribly harder... ^^")

Right now, I'm still in the settling mode... I really hope and pray for a good school year this year. ^^

Oh yeah... we also had the Student Involvement Fair yesterday and here is just a couple pictures the school photographer shot of our Sakura Society Club. ^^ Hehehe... The photographer's name is Wtin... he's also one of the school nurses... and he does photography on the side. This guy is awesome!!! I love him so much! Yey! ^__^

I know I promised more pictures... but this will have to do for now:

Chocolate Death on Deviantart.com

I've been such a lazy bum lately... it's not even funny. Haha... but yeah... check out that link.

Here's just a little preview of the cosplays my friends and I did for this year's Anime Expo. More pictures to come!!! And of course... stuff that went on during that Anime Expo weekend... hahaha! Stay tuned!

My friends and I did Four Swords Link from Legend of Zelda and Death Note. Tell me what you guys think...

I got a new hair cut yesterday... it's the most different haircut I've ever had... long in front, short in the back. Kyyaaa... ^__^ I hope it looks nice. ^^"

I've been up since 5:40 this morning... and yes, I am on summer vacation. Why am I awake this early when I can practically sleep the whole day if I wanted? Well... I decided that this summer, I am going to be more productive and less lazy. Hahaha... ^^;;

Actually, I dont feel like I can fully enjoy the summer (although I really hate the heat) until the grades for this semester have officially been posted. I'm so nervous. I hope I didn't fail anything. >.<

But no use worrying about it right now, neh? For the meantime, I should concentrate on stuff I can actually work on...

I told my mom that starting today she doesnt have to wake up early anymore because I'm putting myself in charge of preparing my younger sister's packed lunch (bento! ^__^). I made it all Japanese-style complete with bento boxes and matching chopsticks. Heehee... I hope my younger sister likes her new set. ^^ I hate waking up early... but I think it's better this way coz now my mom can rest more and I will have a reason to wake up early and force myself out of bed.

Hmmm... lemme see what I have lined up for the day:
~ Joanne's Bento
~ Laundry
~ Application form (yes... I plan to work this summer... I need money)
~ Figure out my tentative summer schedule
~ Call Mt. Sac (yes... I will be taking summer classes to get some G.E.'s out of the way)
~ Call credit card company because they messed up on my name. >.< Damn people. >.<

Neldinne is coming by today, I think. We're planning to go to Jo-ann's to look for fabric and some materials we can use to make our cosplays for this year's Anime Expo. Heehee...

The teacher I look up to the most said that she is very proud of me.

I dont know why... but hearing it from her makes me want to cry.

Thinking about how much she has done for me this year makes me want to cry. There is just something about her that I have never seen or found in any other teacher. I love Ms. G with all my heart.

When she gave me that tight and very sincere hug after I gave her a little gift that I personally made for her, I became speechless and tears were threatening to pour down. I didnt want to cry in front of her. She has made me so happy. She is the only one who is able to give me genuine hope and courage and belief in myself.

There is so much more I am grateful for towards her... but I cant put down in words exactly what I feel about her. T.T

She's the best instructor, role model, and advisor I've ever had!

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I cannot fail this finals week.

I need to make it through this year.

God, please help me. Friends, please pray for me. I really need it.

My whole life depends on this. Seriously.

Finals are coming up for me.

I really need prayers... >.< Onegai...

Watched Wicked today at the Pantages over at Hollywood.

So awesome!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ARAE (AYA) and AISSA!!! ^__^

Happy Valentines, everyone! ^___^

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er... someone sent me a red rose today... but I dont know who it is from. O_o

I went to Lake Tahoe with my older sister and her friends last weekend. THAT WAS A BLAST!!! I had so much fun! I met lots of new people, saw lots of snow, played with lots of snow, SNOWBOARDED FOR THE FIRST TIME, and enjoyed the beautiful scenery! Aaahhh... ^^

Anyways... Just wanna share some pics from my Lake Tahoe trip:

http://sapphirewolf22.multiply.com/photos

I would type up lots of details about the trip, but Im just so tired right now... so maybe next time...

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Other updates:

~ I just experienced my OR (operating room) rotation for clinicals... that was so cool! I was able to see patients being cut open! Bwahahah! And I was able to scrub in!! So very Grey's Anatomy! Hahahaha! Oh and I got to insert a male foley catheter for the first time.
~ So tired from everything... I havent had any rest at all... >.<
~ Med-Surg Exam on Monday... greeaaattt... and more exams to come after that...
~ Got hit on by a doctor while picking a patient one morning... >.<
~ Got mistaken for a doctor >.<

Hmmm... what else... I cant remember what else I was supposed to include with my updates... oh well... next time, I guess...

Anyways... been obsessed with the manga: Vampire Knight... ZERO AND KANAME ARE MINE!! Bwaahahahah!